Looking back at 2018, I once again
made changes had things happen to me that were completely unforseen just one year ago. The most significant was a full head-on, wall crashing collision. I was burning gas way to much, living life much too vicariously and consuming all my inner power and health for plans that were actually unattainable.
The most subtle and important
change difference : that of the mindset. I no longer have expectations, hopes and dreams, nor dissapointments, tragedies, depressions and mental breakdowns. My life has no other meaning than that of a playground, a place were possibilities and potentialities intertwine, where everything can, and eventually will happen. I’m not yet convinced this is the perfect explanation, but it’s definitely the best I found so far. With this in mind, I can now proceed to become the person I always envisioned and always wanted to become. Prior, and without this explanation, the realization was impossible.
Music was once again the linchpin to it all. Discovering Meg Myers was intense as heck, dreaming over Amy Shark‘s light lyrics was necessary, banging and yelling over Dead Sara’s was cathartic. While Bring me the Horizon, Imagine Dragons and 21 Pilots were blasting my souls pieces, the same ol’ Florence, Christine, Lauren and the newcomer Allie put my soul back together again and again. With Grimes, St Vincent, Krewella, Charli XCX and Cat Power all making their presence, it felt like the last 10 years all came together, in a simphony of becoming.
Even though there was way less rap ( still, Motorsport was a song could never truly get rid of ), and electronic influences ( Gorgon City and Aura were the standouts here ) and way more indie and pop ( Chainsmokers, Charlie Puth, Bebe Rexha and Halsey, in case you were wondering) , it’s never a perfect science anymore, and that’s ok. I no longer choose which songs stick in my lists, they choose me.
For the first time in some years, I did not know which was the best song when I started charting. And it was especially difficult when it came down to the last 10-12 of them. That being said, Allie X was a significant influence all year with her dreamy, light, retro-ey pop, with Science starting the top 10, and Amy Shark‘s extremely optimistic and care-free I said Hi at 9. Marmozets ( with Major System Error ) continue to make head-banging rock music and managed to make their second top-10, after their first in 2013. Gorgon City and Night Drive was an instant love affair, the quintesential late-night-drive classic. And speaking of driving, Motorsport, was like the girl I just couldn’t get out of my head, a true masterpiece in 4 acts. Meg Myers was an artist I got completely blown away by, Jealous Sea with it’s destructive power and Numb , coming in at number 5, with it’s cataclysmic burst of depression.
And then, the 4 best songs of the year. Coming to this point, I really did not know what was the correct order, and it took intense soul searching to arrange them.
4-th best was eventually Mallrat, with UFO, the perfect post-adolescent anthem, which works best with some smoke around. 3-rd best was Kodaline with Worth It, which took me on a never ending journey of self discovery and purpose. Chrvches‘s Miracle was a masterfully crafted pop-anthem and came in at 2 ( Lauren’s voice will never grow old on me, and the underlying album ‘Love is Dead’ was the best of the year ).
But ultimately, the best song of the year 2018 is Dead Sara and Unamerican. Nothing short of creative genius lyrically, mocking today’s society at it’s core, unapologetically funny and corosive with it’s strong riffs ( I’m still a sucker for strong riffs). Just like life in general, you don’t need to take the song seriously ( it’s actually, somehow, even better with this in mind ), but you absolutely do need to conserve your humour and instinct to criticize.
Best Female : Meg Myers
Best Male : Charlie Puth
Best Band : The Chainsmokers
Best Album : Chvrches – Love is Dead
Best Video : Kodaline – Worth it
Best Rock : Dead Sara
Best Indie : Mallrat ft. Allday – UFO
Best New Act : Allie X
Dance Anthem : Calvin Harris & Dua Lipa – One Kiss
Best Romanian : Mark Stam – Impar
Guilty Pleasure : Becky G ft. Natasha Nati – Sin Pijama
Sound of 2019 : Sarah Close
Full playlist (ordered) :
See you in 2019, and may your journey through it’s uncertainty be great