Last of the year
Complicated, nervous, mad, sad, exhausting, boring, shocking, confusing, depressing, soul-crushing. This was my year.
Peaceful , fulfilling , (re)discovered, remembering , healing , illuminated , joyous , sweet, memorable. This year was for me.
I got from up to down so many times I cant even remember. I did several unthinkable things, I had the opportunity to test myself in some circumstances, and realize how much more different I behave now.
I got from little-to-no mercy towards cowards to complete forgiveness towards everyone.
I went from knowing a pattern, to living it, to it crushing me, and finally to me redrawing that pattern.
I’ve read far less than I wanted. I wrote even less.
I found out that people perceive me as arrogant. Soon after, I experienced what true arrogance really is.
But after all is said and done, I know for a fact that I will forget almost everything else, except for one particular night.
Because in that one moony night, I was embraced.
And even tough our minds weren’t synchronized, our lips were.
